Hey friends, today has been a day I have dreaded for a few reasons. We would have had a one year old had out little Bird lived and we also lost Ember on this day a year ago. So we remember both our little babes on this day! Honestly it is a day not many would acknowledge but as hard as this day is for us it reminds me of the blessings our little family has, I am so grateful for our little family. I am grateful that I have the knowledge that there is more to life than this earth and that our little Bird and Ember are in heaven waiting for the day we are reunited as a family. Cole and I have been doing fertility treatments and as we have gone through them I had the thought the other day our kids are all together the ones who haven't come and the two that have come and returned to our Father in Heaven! It reminded me as hard as it was to loose Ember that I am so grateful Bird is not alone. I know we have grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, and siblings of mine in heaven with our little ones but I am so glad they have each other. There is a connection between siblings that you can't replace and my kids know that connection since they are there together! I think about my sisters and brother that are here on this earth with me and I can't imagine my life without them, they are my best friends! I am also grateful my siblings who didn't get to stay with us are there as an eternal family being the uncles my kids didn't get to know on this earth. I love my nieces and nephews and I am grateful my siblings get to know that love and connection because our two babes are up there with them.... I have been blessed so much in my life and the comfort I receive from having the knowledge and testimony I do helps me get through the hard days.... This past little bit has had a lot of trials we have had to over come, lots of tears, anger, and laughs and not the good laughs the kind where you feel like everything is hopeless so you start the awkward laugh cry type thing. But even with all those moments we are still trucking along and we know in the end we have the best family reunion with some of the best family members I have yet to meet! Until then I am blessed with my family here and my amazing friends.... I was so blessed this morning when I woke up to a text from my mom telling me she loved me knowing this is a hard day... A few hours later a friend texted and I honestly was surprised and cried tears of gratitude because this day isn't a day I expect anyone to remember, but it showed me how blessed I am that I have the true friends I do. I have to laugh cause this sweet girl and I became friends over a random pin on Pinterest and I never would have guessed such a good friendship would form.... I am extremely grateful for her and her kind words! I am blessed with so many things that I have the strength to help me through the struggles of loosing our babies and going through infertility. For that I am eternally grateful! We are still trying to grow our family and hope one day our little family with grow on this earth, but until then we are enjoying the life we have been given. I hope some day soon we will be able to have the excitement of sharing with you all that we are bringing a baby home with us, until then thank you for all the love and support you all give us! Love you all!
